Life Lessons at the Eye Doctor

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One Sunday evening in December, I noticed a strange visual disturbance in the peripheral of my left eye.

It kind of looked like TV static – similar to the visual noise you may see when you stand up too quickly. Except, I didn’t stand up too quickly. I was just sitting down. It came out of nowhere. It was late. I was tired. I ignored it.  Continue reading “Life Lessons at the Eye Doctor”

We Lost The Bill (Or: How Anxiety Makes Me Totally Irrational)

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I thought I knew my anxiety triggers perfectly. I’ve had anxiety for so long, I assumed I knew every single way it manifested itself in my brain. But apparently, anxiety is not that predictable. I learned this over the Christmas break when I lost a bill.  Continue reading “We Lost The Bill (Or: How Anxiety Makes Me Totally Irrational)”

Surprisingly Underwhelmed

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There’s a lot going on in my life right now. I mentioned some of those things in my last post. Some good, some bad. Some could go either way. Tomorrow, I have a final test (that I barely studied for). I’ve come down with a really bad cold (which is impeding me from studying because my nose is a faucet and my head is a balloon). I found out I can pick up my new car tomorrow. I have to wear this stupid heart monitor for 12 more days. Continue reading “Surprisingly Underwhelmed”

Good Things Can’t Happen To Me?

When a lot of really good things are happening in my life, I worry. I worry that if good things happen, something bad has to come up just to even things out. If you’ve read my post “Scared To Be Happy” (which is apparently my top post!), you’ll see this is nothing new. I’ve struggled with this for a long time, and you may be struggling too.  Continue reading “Good Things Can’t Happen To Me?”

Little Victories Are Still Victories

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I don’t know about you, but sometimes I can be a little too critical. Sometimes of other people (which I’m working on), but usually of myself (which I’m really working on). It’s hard to feel proud of yourself when nothing you ever do is good enough…for you. Lately, I’ve felt like I can’t do anything right. Like nothing I do is good enough. Like I have nothing to feel good about. But then I realized that there have been things I should feel good about. Little things. I should still be proud of the little things, right?  Continue reading “Little Victories Are Still Victories”

What Happens if I Stop Worrying?

…Well, I’m not sure. Because I’ve never successfully stopped. I’m not in a constant state of worry (though I’m sure some people in my life would beg to differ), but I’ve never had real peace of mind. There is never a time when I feel 100% safe or relaxed or comfortable. Partially, of course, it’s because I have an anxiety disorder. But it’s not just that. I think it’s also because I’m scared of what would happen if I stopped worrying.

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Bumps in the Road

I drew another comic today! On crappy Macrosoft Paint! (Hah…MACrosoft…get it! …Neither do I. There’s really not even a joke there. I just used my Mac again.)

You ever feel like some things in life are SO difficult for you, but easy for others? Little challenges that seem so easy to overcome, yet for some reason, they never are? Well…I feel that way all the time. And I drew it.

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