It kind of looked like TV static – similar to the visual noise you may see when you stand up too quickly. Except, I didn’t stand up too quickly. I was just sitting down. It came out of nowhere. It was late. I was tired. I ignored it. Continue reading “Life Lessons at the Eye Doctor”
I thought I knew my anxiety triggers perfectly. I’ve had anxiety for so long, I assumed I knew every single way it manifested itself in my brain. But apparently, anxiety is not that predictable. I learned this over the Christmas break when I lost a bill. Continue reading “We Lost The Bill (Or: How Anxiety Makes Me Totally Irrational)”
There’s a lot going on in my life right now. I mentioned some of those things in my last post. Some good, some bad. Some could go either way. Tomorrow, I have a final test (that I barely studied for). I’ve come down with a really bad cold (which is impeding me from studying because my nose is a faucet and my head is a balloon). I found out I can pick up my new car tomorrow. I have to wear this stupid heart monitor for 12 more days. Continue reading “Surprisingly Underwhelmed”
When a lot of really good things are happening in my life, I worry. I worry that if good things happen, something bad has to come up just to even things out. If you’ve read my post “Scared To Be Happy” (which is apparently my top post!), you’ll see this is nothing new. I’ve struggled with this for a long time, and you may be struggling too. Continue reading “Good Things Can’t Happen To Me?”
I don’t know about you, but sometimes I can be a little too critical. Sometimes of other people (which I’m working on), but usually of myself (which I’m really working on). It’s hard to feel proud of yourself when nothing you ever do is good enough…for you. Lately, I’ve felt like I can’t do anything right. Like nothing I do is good enough. Like I have nothing to feel good about. But then I realized that there have been things I should feel good about. Little things. I should still be proud of the little things, right? Continue reading “Little Victories Are Still Victories”
Adventure Time is probably the best show on TV right now. Seriously, it lives up to the hype. I don’t care if you’re 10, or 30. It’s great. And between all the random craziness, there’s a few life lessons thrown in there. I don’t know why, but the following actually helped me feel a lot better today.
Today, I did something I wouldn’t normally do. I made a pretty serious decision without totally thinking it through first. I dropped a class. When you drop a class this late in the semester, you don’t get your money back. Can you believe I did that? Continue reading “I Am (Possibly) Going Crazy”
…Well, I’m not sure. Because I’ve never successfully stopped. I’m not in a constant state of worry (though I’m sure some people in my life would beg to differ), but I’ve never had real peace of mind. There is never a time when I feel 100% safe or relaxed or comfortable. Partially, of course, it’s because I have an anxiety disorder. But it’s not just that. I think it’s also because I’m scared of what would happen if I stopped worrying.
If you are reading this right now, I encourage you to watch this beautiful video. Casting Crowns has been one of my favourite Christian artists since I was 12 years old. Actually, I think their self-titled album, Casting Crowns (2003) was the second CD I ever owned!
Continue reading “All You’ve Ever Wanted”
I drew another comic today! On crappy Macrosoft Paint! (Hah…MACrosoft…get it! …Neither do I. There’s really not even a joke there. I just used my Mac again.)
You ever feel like some things in life are SO difficult for you, but easy for others? Little challenges that seem so easy to overcome, yet for some reason, they never are? Well…I feel that way all the time. And I drew it.