On Friday, I did something I would have never dreamed of doing even a few years ago – I spoke. Publicly. About my anxiety. It was only in front of maybe 30 people; all people (women and girls) I knew, from my own church. Even though this was a fairly comfortable place to start my public speaking career (lol, no), I was of course still very anxious. Continue reading ““Do You Still Have Panic Attacks””
On March 14th, 2018, my husband and I gained possession of our first ever house. Now, if you’ve been following my blog for a while, you know that although this was our first owned house, it was definitely NOT the first place we lived. Continue reading “Happy Housiversary! What One Year In The Same Place Has Taught Me”
Although this quote about is a ‘travel quote,’ I think it works so well for those of us journeying (get it?!) with mental health issues.
Over the summer, I took the tiny step to simply talk to my doctor about an anxiety clinic I had heard about from someone from my church.
And that turned into a referral to the clinic, a consultation, two months of CBT, psychiatrist check-ups, which helped give me the courage to go through with other medical tests I needed to get done.
I never thought that step would actually lead to anything. I’ve seen so many doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, and specialists over the years. Nothing changed. But this time, it did lead to something – my own journey of a thousand miles.
I am feeling really encouraged lately.
That’s a new one for me.
Aside from my recent ranty post about Bell Let’s Talk, I haven’t blogged in almost 6 months. There are a few reasons for that, aside from writer’s block. First, I was re-evaluating what I wanted from this blog.
Second, I felt like I needed to do some aesthetic changes but not only had writer’s block, but also…creative (?) block. Third, my anxiety has been almost completely under control, which gives me very little to write about (yay?) However, after my brief hiatus, I am back! Continue reading “My Therapist Basically Dismissed Me, I Got a Camera Shoved Down My Throat and Other Stories”
So, I should probably acknowledge that I haven’t blogged in months. I don’t really have any good excuses except…major writer’s block, and the fact that I’m working more hours now, and my time management skills are clearly not up to par. Anywaaaay,
Today is Bell’s Let’s Talk Day – something that has really come into the spotlight over the last few years (Even Ellen is involved!) When you go to their landing page, you’ll be greeted with this headline:
“There are many ways you can show your support and help create a stigma-free Canada”
As someone who grew up with severe mental illnesses, I honestly thought I was completely alone. I thought I was the only person who experienced the world like I did. I didn’t even know what anxiety was until I was eventually diagnosed with it!
I was ashamed to talk about what was happening in my head. I constantly made excuses about why I couldn’t attend this or that because I didn’t feel comfortable admitting why I really couldn’t go to that party or why I stayed home from school for the third day in a row.
Now, I feel comfortable to be open and honest about most of my mental illnesses and what that not only looks like in my life, but how that affects those around me. 20 years ago, I didn’t even know what was wrong with me. All I knew was that something was extremely wrong.
If I was 7 years old today, I think I would have been diagnosed much earlier. I think my parents would have been better equipped to manage my illness. I think doctors wouldn’t have been so dismissive.
I’m glad we are working towards a “stigma-free Canada”
So, it’s been almost a month since I blogged last. I really thought it had only been a week or so, but the last month of summer really flew by faster than I could have imagined! I try to blog about once per week, but when I miss that for whatever reason, I usually post a “life update” to catch you all up on what’s been going on! Continue reading “Life Update: September 8, 2018 – getting treatment, and getting a dog”
This past week(ish) has been the week of appointments. In total, I had four. FOUR medical appointments in less than a week. I had a blood work (AH!), a (very long, very extensive) ultrasound of my entire abdomen, my first appointment at an anxiety clinic (more on that later), and a follow up with my doctor. What a week it has been. Continue reading “Blood Work and Ultrasounds and Therapy, Oh My!”
I have written quite a few posts about losing/gaining/reclaiming/figuring out my independence. This is not a new trend for me – the first post I wrote about this was back in April of 2014! After reading that post, I realized something pretty crappy. I have regressed. A lot. Continue reading “How Can I be More Independent? Taking One Step Forward.”
It seems my brother and I have similar humour (which is not a surprise because…we definitely do have…exactly the same sense of humour) except he is much better at drawing than I am.
Check out his comic(s) and give his new comic account a follow on Instagram!
I haven’t blogged in over two weeks – and I know, I promised one post per week. I had been doing pretty well since March! But every time I opened up a new window to write a new post, I was stuck. Especially after my last post – which got a lot of positive response. Continue reading “Pathetic Fallacy”