My entire life I told my parents I wanted to elope when I finally found someone I loved. They didn’t take me too seriously as a 12-year-old. “Lauren,” Mom would say. “You’re only 12. You won’t be saying that when you’re an adult.” I would then whine about how I hated dresses and hated crowds and hated being the centre of attention. And then, I would forget about it and play Neopets. The sound of Mom’s voice saying “You’ll grow out of it” rang in my ears as I realized I probably would. Continue reading ““But…I Don’t Want a Wedding!””
It’s been two and a half months since I got married. It’s also been almost two and a half months since I wrote my last blog post. I’ve come on here often, desperately wanting to write something, and then either not having time or losing the energy. Today I’ve finally made it my mission to just write. Here it goes. Continue reading “So I Got Married…And Then I Got Depressed (Part One)”
I’m not a huge fan of self-promotion, and I definitely did not create this blog to self-promote (I had nothing to promote two years ago when I started this!) But now, I have a published book! And I would love it if you guys could check it out and support me.
I wrote this book as a requirement for a university class, and now it’s become my baby. It’s actually a collection of fourteen short stories I have written over the years while in my writing program. I also know I’ve tried to remain anonymous on this blog, but now that’s going to be impossible as I share this book with you. That’s okay. I’m not ashamed of my anxiety or of anything else I’ve written about on here.
Don’t Stop Now: A Collection Of Short Stories is creative non-fiction writing, and follows my character from childhood until a few months ago as I struggle with and try to overcome my various anxiety issues. I decided to focus on my anxiety as the main theme because, as I’m sure you know, I am SO open about mental health problems and I want it to be talked about, I want people to realize that this is not something to be ashamed of – and it’s okay to be honest about it. I have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. Writing about it is therapeutic for me.
Anyway, if you are interested, you can order a copy:
I am a selfish person. This took me many, many years to finally and freely admit, but it’s true. It’s partially because of my personality, and partially because of my anxiety. Whatever the reason, it doesn’t really matter – selfishness is selfishness. And it’s a relationship killer. It’s destructive. I hate it. Continue reading “Just Me and My Selfishness”
I am very impatient. There. I said it. I can admit it. I hate waiting. I hate waiting for things – like waiting to bring home my new car. Like waiting to see my final mark in a course. Like waiting to see a good friend who moved hours away. I hate it. I hate waiting during things too. Like waiting in my classroom for my final exam to start. Like waiting in line at a busy McDonalds. Like waiting to get a car key replaced (that I lost) at a Honda Dealership. Yeah. I hate it. Continue reading “Learning Patience at the Honda Dealership”
NOTICE: BEFORE I get started on my real post, I just wanted to talk about the small changes I’ve made to my blog! The website link has stayed the same (www.anxiousandawesome.wordpress.com), however, the actual name of my blog has changed to “Ellay’s Space”(My initials are L.A…Ell…Ay…Ellay) – because I apparently like borderline cliché, boring blog names. Whatever. I decided to change the name because my blog is not just about anxiety – I felt it was misleading when I decided to blog about things such as social media and books and movies and TV shows and whatever else I decided to blog about. I also felt constrained – like I had to stick to one topic because of the name, which might be a stupid reason but also…whatever. It is changed now.
Alriiiiight! On to the actual post!