I Am Still a Slave To Fear – But Also a Child Of God

The first time I heard the song “No Longer Slaves” was when my husband was interviewing at a new church two years ago, and we went to visit one of their services. Although we didn’t end up at that church, we really enjoyed their worship – and I soon realized that “No Longer Slaves” was a popular song. Although I liked the song and sang along, something felt very off to me – though I couldn’t pinpoint it just yet.

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T-Rex Was Here

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During my time as a day camp leader this past summer, I started an accidental cult. Well, not really. Well, not at all…

But something a little strange, though seriously funny, happened. Now, you need a bit of background information. I volunteered at a day camp run out of my church (but at the time, my husband Jeff and I had just started attending). Jeff got a job as a “day camp director” and so I thought it would be fun to volunteer while he worked. A grade 12 girl and I were the leaders for grade 3-4 girls. We all had camp names. Mine was T-Rex.  Continue reading “T-Rex Was Here”

I’m So Angry!

Not really though. Not now at least. But sometimes I am. I have had a problem with anger, sometimes to the point of rage, since…forever. I remember being around ten years old, flying into such a rage that I couldn’t remember what I had said or done. That’s scary. Yesterday, I visited F’s church. His dad is a pastor. He preached on anger. You know how sometimes you go to a service and feel like the sermon was made just for you? Yeah…that’s how I felt yesterday. Continue reading “I’m So Angry!”

Little Victories Are Still Victories

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I don’t know about you, but sometimes I can be a little too critical. Sometimes of other people (which I’m working on), but usually of myself (which I’m really working on). It’s hard to feel proud of yourself when nothing you ever do is good enough…for you. Lately, I’ve felt like I can’t do anything right. Like nothing I do is good enough. Like I have nothing to feel good about. But then I realized that there have been things I should feel good about. Little things. I should still be proud of the little things, right?  Continue reading “Little Victories Are Still Victories”

Breaking Up: It’s Not You, It’s Me

I went through a pretty big break-up recently. It was a big deal. It was emotional, and it was difficult. It took months to decide if this is what I really wanted, and eventually I knew what I had to do. It was time to say goodbye. After 21 years, it was time to say goodbye to my home church.

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