“It’s Stress.”

So, yesterday I woke up with chest pain and basically non-stop skip beats. If you read my recent post, I have been struggling a lot with health anxiety lately so this incident just put me over the edge. I debated going to the ER, but logically knew it was unlikely to be anything serious (knowing my anxiety has made me feel similar ways in the past). So, I went to my family doctor and guess what?  Continue reading ““It’s Stress.””


“This is Shit”


I rarely swear on my blog, and although I categorize “shit” in the almost-not-a-swear-but-still-offends-some-people category, I understand many are offended by the word. If you are, I would kindly ask that you continue reading and instead, feel offended by what I’m about to show you instead.

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I Am NOT Fine.


About two months ago (I think) I wrote a post about trying out anti-anxiety medication. My doctor gave me the most basic, least-likely-t0-react-to meds, and put me on the lowest dose. I refused to take them. So many times I thought I was going to, but then I didn’t. Well guess what, yesterday, I finally did it. I took the stupid pill. Continue reading “I Am NOT Fine.”


Medication? Trying Something New.


If you don’t already know, let me give you a brief history about my mental health battles. I have had severe anxiety as long as I can remember. I don’t what what it feels like to not be anxious. I don’t know what it feels like to have any sort of pain and my first thought not be, “this is serious, I’m going to die.” I honestly know nothing else.  Continue reading “Medication? Trying Something New.”


Panic Attacks


I have been a little MIA from my blog lately. I’m getting married in two weeks and just started a new job – so yes, you could say my life is just a bit busier than usual. I had a MASSIVE panic attack on Thursday.

It was bad I had to miss my second shift of work. So bad I actually went to the doctors about it. So bad that the doctors prescribed me lorazepam. I didn’t take it, and I don’t know if I’ll ever take it. I was once against anti-anxiety meds – not because I think there’s anything wrong with them, but because I thought they “weren’t for me.” Well I’ve reached a point where they MIGHT be for me. Not permanently. I know they aren’t a permanent solution. But if that happens again, the overwhelming, life altering panic I experienced on Thursday, I might take one.

I don’t have much else to say right now, but I wanted to blog. My anxiety has been bad, but I feel like an upcoming wedding would give anyone anxiety. We’ll see how the next few weeks go.