In a recent blog post, I word vomited my way through a lot of things I have been feeling lately. One of those things was the decision to get a second dog – a German Shorthaired Pointer, the breed of dog I have wanted for the last 13 years. Yes, years. Because I spent much of my childhood and early teenage years researching dog breeds. Like a weirdo.
Continue reading “It’s Happening! We’re Getting a Puppy!”
This might not seem like a big deal, but trust me…(see here and here and here) it is.
For the last THREE years I’ve tried to take this (required) course and dropped out every time. I took the first half of it three years ago and halfway through dropped it – meaning I lost all the money I put into that class.
Last year, I tried to take that class again so I could graduate in June 2016. I took it…and dropped it. Thankfully I dropped it BEFORE the drop date, so I got refunded.
This year I had no choice. It was the last class I needed to graduate, and, if I actually wanted to graduate I finally had to take it.
And I did.
And it was painful. And it was hard. And it caused me A LOT of anxiety. And I put more work into that class than any other class I’ve ever taken and still didn’t get great marks.
But it’s over. And I (think) I got a B! IT’S DONE!
I’M FINISHED STATS FOREVER!
I haven’t written a lot of faith-related posts lately. Probably because my anxiety has been so prominent, I had a hard time writing about anything else. But, I’m really excited about something my husband and I started at our current church, I want to share it with you.
Continue reading “Hockey Girls”
I’ve never removed a just-written post before because I do my best to keep my posts civil and non-offensive, so I haven’t seen a reason to.
Today I wrote a post called “Eye Infections.” I was basically just ranting about why my dog’s recurring eye infections, annoying phone issues, and current health issues were frustrating me and how I missed church because I couldn’t stop crying.
Honestly, a pretty typical post for me lately.
Any other day, I wouldn’t have thought twice about leaving that post up.
A few minutes after I posted that rant, I saw a link titled “NYU Student’s 9/11 Video From Her Dorm Room Is Just Now Going Viral…Almost 15 Years Later.” I opened it up. I remembered what day it was.
I essentially cried through that whole video clip. That is a real reason to cry. Not eye infections or shady use phone stores.
I don’t like to downplay people’s emotions. Just because something tragic happened doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to feel sad when you fail or test or when your cat dies or when a date gets cancelled.
But today is not the day to rant about my stupid phone or sick dog.
Though I’m Canadian, and 9/11 happened when I was just 9 years old, it affected me more than a lot of things. I can’t imagine the people who were actually there, or lost loved ones on that day.
Here is the video I watched for anyone who can’t access the first link.
I feel like I just don’t know how to function properly anymore. The last year of my life was so stressful, I think I learned even more unhealthy ways of life-management. And trust me, I already had so many locked away up in my barely-functioning brain. Continue reading “How?”
If you read my last post or two, you probably heard about my husband’s car accident. It totalled our car, caused a lot of anxiety for me (obviously), and made our already busy lives even busier. Thankfully, my husband came out of it without a scratch. Warning: this is going to be one of my ranty posts. Continue reading ““A Blessing In Disguise””
So, I haven’t blogged in over a week and honestly, I still don’t know what to write about. But I realize that if I don’t stay somewhat consistent, I’ll probably go months without writing anything at all. So here it is, another life update. Continue reading “Life Update: April 23, 2016”
One Sunday evening in December, I noticed a strange visual disturbance in the peripheral of my left eye.
It kind of looked like TV static – similar to the visual noise you may see when you stand up too quickly. Except, I didn’t stand up too quickly. I was just sitting down. It came out of nowhere. It was late. I was tired. I ignored it. Continue reading “Life Lessons at the Eye Doctor”
I listened to this song a bunch of times on repeat this evening. I needed this reminder. Maybe you do too.
I’m sitting in a Starbucks right now as I write this. I feel like the manifestation of a cliché right now. THIS WEEK’S HEADLINE: Aspiring writer blogs at local Starbucks. There’s some smooth jazz playing in the background and I have some fancy drink melting beside my Macbook Air. And I am content. Continue reading “Feeling Content”