This should probably be titled “I Had A Bad Week,” but that just doesn’t sound as good. Plus, today was like, extra bad compared to the others. I also originally wanted to title it “I Had a Bad Day” (and yes, now that song is stuck in my head)
but apparently, I already have a post titled I Had a Bad Day (and if I’m being honest, that’s one of my personal favourite posts, so you should definitely check it out).
Why did I have a bad day? That’s not really important. It just sucked. This whole entire week was extra stressful. I didn’t get as much sleep as I should, which is guaranteed to make my anxiety soar. I was way busier than usual – meaning my schedule was off and that also tends to make me feel more anxious.
I wrote a blog post yesterday that I spent literally hours writing up and doing research for (it was about the general state of mental health care in Canada. Spoiler: it’s not great). But then I felt it was too…something…and didn’t end up posting it.
I felt unproductive at work, and unmotivated. Even my weekly, ‘easy’ tasks felt overwhelming. I was forgetful, tired, and moody. I am worried about my health (convinced I have diabetes again, for the 50th time) and have been extremely bloated and uncomfortable all week.
Today just topped it off this crap week with some more crap. Now I’m physically and emotionally tired, but trying to make the best of it. I have the whole evening to myself – so I’m going to binge (probably all of season 4) BoJack Horseman, eat chocolate mint fudge that I bought at the local fair today, cuddle with my dog, and wear cute socks and PJs just for me. And maybe Instagram, I haven’t decided yet.
So yeah. Today was bad, and that’s okay. I’m going to make the most of what’s left.
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