Life In General

Living In The “Almost”

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Everyone talks about “living in the present.” I’m sure most people actually don’t, but I’m not talking about living in the past or even in the future. Well, I’m kind of talking about living in the future to be honest. I think that a lot of us live in the “almost.”Think about it. Think about our language and what we talk about on a daily basis.

“Class is almost over.”
“It’s almost time for bed.”
“It’s almost lunchtime.”
“It’s almost my break.”
“Just a minute, I’m almost done this level!”
“I can’t talk now, my favourite show is almost starting.”

Now think about it on a bigger scale.

“It’s almost Christmas” has become a time in itself. We celebrate “Almost Christmas” throughout the entire month of December. We decorate our trees and listen to Christmas music and go to Christmas parties and bake Christmas cookies and shop and wrap presents. We do this all before December 25th. We celebrate the almost.

It’s not just Christmas that we do this with. “I’m almost married” is the engagement. We celebrate the birth of babies before they’re even born. “It’s Almost Spring and Easter.” “It’s almost New Years.” “It’s almost the summer.” “It’s almost back to school.”

Almost has become a time itself. But I would say this almost living is the same as living in the future and ignoring the present.

I mean, I don’t have a problem enjoying the Christmas season. Actually, it’s my favourite time of the year. I don’t think that’s harmful. I used that as an example to show how prevalent this kind of language and thinking is in our society.

I am constantly living in the almost.  Right now, my almost is “I’m almost done my undergrad.” 

I feel like I’m in a weird stage because I’m finishing off just a few classes per semester, but I’m not done yet. I don’t feel fully engaged in school because, honestly, I’m tired of it. But I also cannot fully engage with the post-graduate work world because I’m not actually done yet. So yeah, I’m living in the almost.

But yesterday, I decided to stop that.

I am embracing the fact that I’m not done school yet, and that’s okay.
I am embracing the fact that right now, I have two professors who seem to care a lot about me and are willing to help me figure out new ways of entering the writing world.
I am no longer going to be the girl who’s “almost done her undergrad.” I am the girl who’s doing her undergrad. That’s it. I’m doing it.

Almost done isn’t done. And that’s okay. I’m okay with not being done. Yes, literally, I am “almost done” because I have completed almost all my classes and program requirements. Still, I’m not going to let that “almost” take over and make me wish that I was “finally done.” Because being “almost done” means that I’m looking towards the “done.” And I want to enjoy the rest of my undergrad, even if it does take me six years to finish.

2 thoughts on “Living In The “Almost””

  1. I love your perspective in this post- it’s all too easy to be caught living in the “almost” and not even realizing it! I think it’s something I need to work on in my life, so thanks for tackling it!

    Best of luck this semester! My last semester I took 2 classes and life was so much easier and less stressful (though I was planning our wedding at the time, so having less school was necessary!). Maintaining a good balance in life and remembering to live in the moment are two key factors to being happier, in my opinion.

    NewlyWeddedWurl.Wordpress.com

    1. Thank you! I only took three classes when I was planning my wedding, and I probably should have gone down to two like you did :P
      I’ve always been okay taking school slowly because I know if I don’t, my mental health and my relationships seriously suffer. Now that I’m SO close to finishing, I just wanted to get it all over with as soon as possible. But I realize I’m not the kind of person who can do that. So yeah, now I’ll just enjoy being a part-time student for however long until I graduate.

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