I have not written a lot of posts about my faith lately. That’s because, unfortunately, my anxiety has kind of taken over. Anyway – today will be different. And hopefully I’ll start to be more consistent with my blogging again. Alright SO. Have you ever asked for something (from God, or from your parents, or from a friend or whatever) and you thought you really wanted it or that you really needed it? And then when you finally got it…it’s not what you expected?
This sort of just happened to me. I don’t want to get into the specifics, but it did. I asked for something for a very long time, and told myself “Yeah, I’m doing it God’s way” but in reality, I was just hoping and praying that God would go along with it and be like “Ah alright, that was a good plan. Better than MINE even! So let’s do it your way this time.”
That doesn’t really happen. Ever. And so I got what I wanted (kind of) and it’s not what I needed and it just ended up making things more complicated and I ended up getting hurt in the process. At the same time, I think it needed to happen for two reasons.
1. For MONTHS, I thought this was something that would be the best for me. No idea why. It was just something I thought, on my own. Well – now I know that this wasn’t the best thing, so I can STOP obsessing over it!
2. Now I know for sure that God knows what He is doing.
So yeah. I’m done with doing it my own way. It doesn’t work. It never does. And even if it seems like it is working out, you’ll never know if there could have been something better out there for you, if you had just done it God’s way instead of yours.