Alright so I have to blog right now because I’m kind of freaking out.
If you read my “About Me” You’ll know that I have emetophobia which is just a fancy way of saying I have a horrible fear of throwing up.
I’ve had it since I was 8 years old. It’s pretty much the biggest trigger for my panic attacks. Tonight I ate about 3 pieces of a steak and realized it tasted weird. My dad tried some and agreed.
Now I am freaking out. Like full on panic attack. Can’t think rationally. Can’t distract myself (although I’m trying to by writing this post) and I’m just TIRED of being like this.
I know that I only ate a very small portion of it and it was cooked all the way through – and it didn’t taste horrible, it just tasted a little weird. But still. I’m now convinced that I will get food poisoning and spend the next few hours – days with my arms wrapped securely around a toilet bowl. My parents ate it too and aren’t feeling sick, but I already feel the nausea and my stomach is turning. I don’t know what to do and I just can’t take my mind off it.
On a more positive note, I bought a new TV today and it’s awesome.